about a cat

Dear sweet boy

It's getting harder than I thought .. No one understands how hard life can be for someone like me .. a broken soul, a broken heart .. someone who doesn't even have the luxury of tearing up.

No one knows how much pain I carry inside or how hard it is to wear a happy face all the time. I feel guilty for other people’s sadness.. yet no one ever looks and wonders how I manage to stay so calm all the time.

Having you was the only thing I ever wished for. I never felt alone or cast out. Even on my darkest nights you were there lying beside me .. looking at me and reminding me that I wasn’t alone.

It feels ridiculous to write this about a cat, but the truth is… I never felt lonely when you were there for me.

I feel so heavy, so stressed out.   I need a long tight hug .. one that holds me together until my soul melts its tears away...

I need to let all these feelings out so I can breathe again...